Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Remembered Kisses


i hardly knew you
yet i had known you
all of you
in that Place
where all the spheres and hemispheres are dancing
Light and Colour
pulsing with the movement of the universe
no Place no Name
no Two

you Are my Dance
flowing through me, Music filling me
when I am empty
earthsong, starsong
leaving trails of light
as the sun the moon leave trails of light

you are my Dance in Summer
Air heavy with the perfume of honeysuckle
and new mown hay
Valerian Dreams
and Shadow of Hawk circling
to take me riding on the wings of heaven
climbing ever closer to the Sun

Dance in Circles! Spark and shine!
Pierce the veil of night
With fire!
A fountain of falling stars
swirls against the blue-black sky
which lightens to the sweeter sighs and rustlings
of Morning come
too soon

you are my Dance of Winter
ice crystals sparkling in my hair
spinning spinning on the ice
in the crisp cold air
Dancing to songs of Death and Hope
of Life to come

the Joy of Rest
the sharp ecstasy of winking out
only to reappear
somewhere else again

my Dance of Autumn
butter yellow sunlight pouring
rich and sweet, air spiced
with the sharp scent of burning leaves
the sere metallic odour of glorious Decay
and the Heat of remembered kisses
your soul spilling into me
flowing over with your songs

you are my Dance in springtime
i open to you
and you open in me
the golden Heart of the Music
warming and awakening life
humming from beneath the earth
along unseen pathways
flowing like waters
freed from Winter’s blessed chill

you are the Dance beneath the Sea
the Dance of dragonflies spiraling in summer Skies
of cool gum-sweet pine forests
of the Queen of Heaven’s radiant Crown
your Songs a Passage
from Light to Light
from Dark to Dark
and Dark to Light again
Ancient, Eternal
Awakening that Love without which
Nothing


 

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

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you, who were kissed
by the maid, joan of arc
on the eve of her triumph
so long ago
held aloft by your mother
in the air wild
with bells
offered in joy
to her shining lips
      were you branded forever
      with the fire of holiness?
      did your starved limbs fill out
      with the promise of bliss?

touched by the soldier maid
sent straight from heaven
surrounded by angels
and god, the electric
      did your heart swell triumphant?
      was your voice raised in song?

you, who were brushed
by the passage of destiny
kissed by wonder and joy
one bright night in your youth
held
for a moment
by the hope of a nation
      did your soul grow inside you?
      did it matter at all?
 
 
© pkt 1979

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Patron Saint of Missed Opportunities



                                                                                  For my Mother
I        

 

a tall cool beauty all legs and delicate bone structure

luxuriant russet-glinted waves of dark brown pouring over shoulders

and before the gleam in her brilliant hazel eyes died for lack of love

she could have been a movie star

the boys had buzzed around as if she were the Source of all nectar back then

                her era Golden                 

her mind and heart at war

a woman breaking Free and terrified

pristine atmosphere, oxygen shy 



she married her brother’s best friend

devilishly dark and handsome

the features of his unsung Native ancestors

cut through the fog of her virginal awareness

quickened something unimagined even

in those bleak post-Victorian days when young girls bled unknowing

sure they were about to die

generation and its means spoken only in whispers

the language of pain and fear

but Love! o Love! a pure and glowing thing somehow

in an age of Photoplay superimposed over the necessities of blood and fire



the first night did not go well, nor many nights thereafter

he had no time



what was the true effect

coming of age in those black & white days of twin beds

and Hayes Acts and whitewash

it seems as if childhood was a sitcom

where Father’s life was a gyroscope of its own centrifugal force

pulling all into spiraling selflessness around it

the definition of nuclear family fails

when the center of gravity implodes

ashes ashes we all fall down!

like the plague

marriages made in apr├Ęs war sickened and died

blackened and burned

children half orphans

grandparents aunts uncles all far away in the atomized explosion

of a mobile society

 

II         



the river keeps flowing

sweet juicy bodies swell on the vine

peach fuzz cheeks, firm ripe flesh

every generation is the First one

sure no one who knows anything has ever Been here before

arrogance innocence or not so much

we see our age reflected in the eyes of our cohort

this Hot music has never been made in all of time

we are the First

until all interventions inventions and no control

the confidence arrogance withers along with flesh

sliding from beneath the skin

leaving paper coating

fragile wizened sagging

whence that golden sweetness

electric juice of yesterday?

the images I see

those vanished

who will not know this world again

(ah well, there's always reincarnation but you never know)

those beads slipped off the chain into the vast heart of darkness

jitterbug jive dancing on top of the world

everything's new unspoiled faultless

Big Band Big Sound

riffs purloined from people so far down

why would they have anything you need?

but they have Soul

will you steal their souls

refill the tanks with stolen fields and jungles

claim their history for your own

wear their clothes their ornaments

can you pray to their god?

she dances

notes sliding sinuously into her inherited body

her burning spirit bread in a starving land

water in the valley of death



the scales fall from the eyes of the year

in crimson gold profusion

Fall away Fall away

buried beneath winter's mast

like a leaf from an earlier slaughter

the hollow shell of a nut

food for worms



can she step out of eternity to touch the living breath again?


Sunday, September 10, 2017

Children of the Air


"{They do} not hear;{they} will not look,
Nor yet be lured out of this book.
For, long ago, the truth to say,
{They have} grown up and gone away,
And {they are but children} of air
That linger in the garden there."
~ Robert Louis Stevenson



 



where do children go when they’re grown? 
the innocent photos of smiling faces
are they all lies?
 
we are old we are old
to have those babes come back to haunt our elder time
with their cries and the horrors of their wounded souls
begging to be held and enfolded in arms
as the children they once were
and their dervish whirlings in the world
random strikes as of a hundred thousand knives
the darts of hatred
and unfulfilled desires
not our own but somehow left  behind
to twist like daggers in the psyche
fiery paths slicing through brain matter
slicing through what passes for persona
all a Mask of competence
overlying chasms of flame and flood

the tiny cold emptiness expands and
shuts down joy and light
receptors switched off
blot out the mental pictures
memories
loops run endlessly
of more uncomplicated days when smiling faces
cakes and candles
bare legs and superhero cloaks
made unscripted moments of laughter
spontaneous love and pride
Wait! are those shadows?
are those eyes lowered in some secret grief?
so hard to tell
to remember the exact moment

was there more to that afternoon
than sunlight patterns from the trees
than baby steps and childish glee?
looking back I see more
the lack of complication a lie told to self
in the morning of consciousness
before experience clouded
or embellished a life
certain in the knowledge
that the world would be saved by love alone



© 2017 pamela twining