heart of darkness

in the hour before dawn

night's shadow enfolds the sleeping world

in her heart of darkness

cool and empty

a space of no Wanting

welcome respite from the Fire

ah! Fire!

that had saved me

awakened/lit the fuse of my Desire

warming glow to searing fountain

of flame

now engulfing that Secret Place

i thought was Safe

no Center, no Balance

chakras collapse into each other like broken puppets

cast aside for newer games

if the Center cannot hold, all love is lost

there can be no Gift of Self

if there is no Self to Give

enter midnight's womb

without stars or rays of light

to pierce the black curtain

now rung down on this Show

i receive the Darkness

like the Communion Host

sweet on my tongue

filling my soul

and spreading Quiet and Peace

within

and from that deepest stillness

emerge to Light again

i will not be a leaf

tossed and whirled by the current

but become the current itself

as it rushes to the sea

coming at last

to the Silence of wide waters

back to the unseen ebb and flow

of all Beginning

as the flower bends

to the weight of the bee

sipping Life

so i bend

to the blessed weight of Spirit

taking Joy in my essence

and returning Life to me

a hundredfold